be careful what u wish for , u might actually get it.....

easy words,not so easy feelings,
there are broken dreams and shattered hopes.....
unfulfilled wishes and numb moments.
the pain that twists ur heart,
the guilt of hurting...
the depths u fall too
the heights u soar too.
the core n stratosphere merge into one
the universe becomes a gaping black hole
it sucks in light n all life from u,
the state of being a zombie
and floating in outer space.......
trying too hard to forget all
but clean slates are not easy to come by
and then u think.....
be careful for what u wish for,it might actually come true

How do I love thee?Let me count the ways......

The following poem is my favourite piece in the English Literature
Sad ,poignant and achingly beautiful,it reflects a lot of what i am and what i feel.
It was written by Elizabeth Barrett Browning aged 38, fell in love with a younger man in the 18th century,a no mean feat ,inspite of oppostion from her heartless father and the fact that she was an invalid.However love conquers all n they led a happy life til she died in his arms 1861.
I hope every body who reads it enjoys it as much i do.

How do I love thee? Let me count the ways.
I love thee to the depth and breadth and height
My soul can reach, when feeling out of sight
For the ends of Being and ideal Grace.
I love thee to the level of everyday's
Most quiet need, by sun and candle-light.
I love thee freely, as men strive for Right;
I love thee purely, as they turn from Praise.
I love thee with a passion put to use
In my old griefs, and with my childhood's faith.
I love thee with a love I seemed to lose
With my lost saints, --- I love thee with the breath,
Smiles, tears, of all my life! --- and, if God choose,
I shall but love thee better after death.

Elizabeth Barett Browning

obsessed with black??

hi
i am trying to figure out why black is the universal favourite colour?
with blues greens reds n pinks why do people automatically graviate towards black??
be it formal evenings or casual t shirts....
coz it is mysterious?? or secretive ??or just an enigma??
hell black does not even have hues!!
ever heard of light balck n dark black?? of pale black n baby black??
naaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhh
well as a painter it does not excite me much
it has to be offset with other colours .....colours which bring out its intensity and give it a 3 D depth
otherwise...... just black??(as oil colour or water )......... too boring :(
with due respect black emboldens n black defines but i think i prefer more cheer in a world which is already beating its black evil heart

names n all contd.

ok the maverick thing has not ben taking of f due to unforseen reasons
so i apologize n i ll continue with the hebrew blessings(sigh)
n i want to use this public platform to convince people that i appreciate their maverick selves whole heartedly no matter what
n i am still trying to get rid of the hebrew fixation but alas!!
love all

names and all

well i was desperately trying to change the name of my blog from hebrew blessings to something else....
by the way for uninitiated chani in hebrew means blessings ....so there
hey hold it i have a couple other meanings up my sleaves
in konakni i am a squirell
and in japanese a flower!!!
ok so sorry for digressing we were in the middle of my naam karan ceremony when viola i thought of chaotic silence
but......................
it was taken n so was silent chaos n everything in between!!! grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr
so finally i present here with a flourish worldly maverick
not the best oxy moron but what the hell will do
n since i cannot take the credit alone i thank this real cool dude i know.....
(he was trying to get me to name the blog mavericka like a female version...shudder!!
thank god for small mercies!!)

the very first

ok this is new born and a very dear friend of mine is pestering me to write more with the help of his sad smiley icons(i have wondered why do we actually call those emoticons when sad?? sadeys??)
so here is to u dipanjan( u damn lucky i hope u know that...u know being mentioned in my blog n all lol ..no sweets really u r the nicest ever here is appealing to my fairy godmother to bless u with lots a love n luck n luck in love)

i have known thousands of ppl in the short span of my life n i wonder why u sometimes know ppl since ages n stil dont know them at all
n sometimes u know ppl 4 months n u get along like house on fire n then u wonder at the intricacies n the simplicity of all

some ppl are really hard to understand( thanks to their mood swings n all)
some too easy( bless their transparency)
while quite a few confound me
so here is to them so that my poor deprived soul understands n relates to them provide comfort they way they have to me n hope they stay with me throughout their lives inspite of mutual short fuses