cant i be just me??

i dont want to b a maverick or anything else
u know i wd rather be just me
pl accept me for who i am dont try n change me
if u did i wd be not the person u fell in love with
accept me for my pluses n minuses as i do to u
i am not clay u r not my creator
dont mold me into a pattern
i might just be different: an odd shaped peg
i ll accept u for who u r n walk tall
and expect u to do the same
give me space to fly to learn n grow
i ll bind u only with love n loyalty
not with heavy ropes or chains
or maybe is should just say i may look like i am made of steel n i do have a strong spine
but pl treat me tenderly for u may just hurt me

happy new year!!!

hallos and a bright new cheery happy new year to all
i know it is slightly late in the day but what the heck it is never too late to spread some cheer n warm wishes.... wat say????

ok this ne w year has not been very eventful......though the last one ended on a fabulous note (details on that later)
in fact 2007 has been disappointing so far
i have been reading a lot of page long predictions..now i really dont believe in them but it is fun and they seem to litter every year end issue...i bet their sales really jump up.........anyways they are predicting a nice romance on the cards ...ahem!!
now this is interesting and seems like an exciting prospect but i really dont know
what if it is not the "one"???

what if i fall for the bad guy.........the one u know our moms warn us about. the provincial bad guy with rugged look and piercing eyes....the one who leaves u gasping for more.........
the big bad wolf?? would he gobble me up ?? just like that???and move on to newer greener pastures???
hmmmmm...sure sounds delicious and adventurous and dangerous.

but then i have this nasty feeling creeping up on me....that i might not take the chance
i just might end up prefering the lighter side of black and not the darker side of white!!!

que sera sera
whatever ll be ll be

love n luck to all n cheers!


p.s: New year resolution ..no more vodkas

be careful what u wish for , u might actually get it.....

easy words,not so easy feelings,
there are broken dreams and shattered hopes.....
unfulfilled wishes and numb moments.
the pain that twists ur heart,
the guilt of hurting...
the depths u fall too
the heights u soar too.
the core n stratosphere merge into one
the universe becomes a gaping black hole
it sucks in light n all life from u,
the state of being a zombie
and floating in outer space.......
trying too hard to forget all
but clean slates are not easy to come by
and then u think.....
be careful for what u wish for,it might actually come true

How do I love thee?Let me count the ways......

The following poem is my favourite piece in the English Literature
Sad ,poignant and achingly beautiful,it reflects a lot of what i am and what i feel.
It was written by Elizabeth Barrett Browning aged 38, fell in love with a younger man in the 18th century,a no mean feat ,inspite of oppostion from her heartless father and the fact that she was an invalid.However love conquers all n they led a happy life til she died in his arms 1861.
I hope every body who reads it enjoys it as much i do.

How do I love thee? Let me count the ways.
I love thee to the depth and breadth and height
My soul can reach, when feeling out of sight
For the ends of Being and ideal Grace.
I love thee to the level of everyday's
Most quiet need, by sun and candle-light.
I love thee freely, as men strive for Right;
I love thee purely, as they turn from Praise.
I love thee with a passion put to use
In my old griefs, and with my childhood's faith.
I love thee with a love I seemed to lose
With my lost saints, --- I love thee with the breath,
Smiles, tears, of all my life! --- and, if God choose,
I shall but love thee better after death.

Elizabeth Barett Browning

obsessed with black??

hi
i am trying to figure out why black is the universal favourite colour?
with blues greens reds n pinks why do people automatically graviate towards black??
be it formal evenings or casual t shirts....
coz it is mysterious?? or secretive ??or just an enigma??
hell black does not even have hues!!
ever heard of light balck n dark black?? of pale black n baby black??
naaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhh
well as a painter it does not excite me much
it has to be offset with other colours .....colours which bring out its intensity and give it a 3 D depth
otherwise...... just black??(as oil colour or water )......... too boring :(
with due respect black emboldens n black defines but i think i prefer more cheer in a world which is already beating its black evil heart

names n all contd.

ok the maverick thing has not ben taking of f due to unforseen reasons
so i apologize n i ll continue with the hebrew blessings(sigh)
n i want to use this public platform to convince people that i appreciate their maverick selves whole heartedly no matter what
n i am still trying to get rid of the hebrew fixation but alas!!
love all

names and all

well i was desperately trying to change the name of my blog from hebrew blessings to something else....
by the way for uninitiated chani in hebrew means blessings ....so there
hey hold it i have a couple other meanings up my sleaves
in konakni i am a squirell
and in japanese a flower!!!
ok so sorry for digressing we were in the middle of my naam karan ceremony when viola i thought of chaotic silence
but......................
it was taken n so was silent chaos n everything in between!!! grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr
so finally i present here with a flourish worldly maverick
not the best oxy moron but what the hell will do
n since i cannot take the credit alone i thank this real cool dude i know.....
(he was trying to get me to name the blog mavericka like a female version...shudder!!
thank god for small mercies!!)